Beautiful

I'm a thinker. I'm a dreamer. I want everything now, miss out the middle man and just be, most of the time I don't want to put the work in, I want it all and I want it yesterday. How familiar does that thought process sound? I think it's reminiscent of so many people I know, I love people with ambition and drive, to do, see and be, but so few of us actually go, act and live.

I watched 'The Secret Life of Walter Mitty', I watched it at the cinema and I watched it the other night and I'll be damned if I don't watch it another few times before this month is through. It is so prominent and honest, exaggerated and crazy, but there is this one line, and it gets me, grabs me holds me tight and gives my heart a little caress- 'beautiful things don't ask for attention'... and I have asked for a lot of attention.  I wonder if James Thurber when writing this quote thought of the impact this would have on someone’s life. Now I genuinely stop to think, beautiful things can be all aware of their beauty or completely independent to its existence yet so rarely are you asked to clarify the beauty exists. I believe everyone has that possibility but so many people and things now seek validation in life, so much so that any beauty is quickly lost or hidden for fear someone may question or object to its being.

I know all too well that these may just  be the ramblings of a nothing twenty something year old, or at least that is was the media has told me I am, because if I'm not getting 10,000 views a day or going viral then really who am I to comment(?). But it is lines like that, when they grab you and make you listen and you feel that little flutter, like something inside you just wakened because it resonated back, it spoke to some part and that part screamed "exactly!", that you can start to use it. Because I have found lately that I have seen things (an article, a picture, gossip, another person’s achievement), I have tried to be things (yogi, chef, bi-lingual extraordinaire) that I almost feel if I can have them validated they will become part of me to help define who I am to everyone else. Yet as a person I don't need that, I shouldn't need another person’s approval to feel worthy and yet so often I do, but if you are that thing you’re trying to validate, that's it. End of. Just be.

Life is a statement, not a question.

So I'm trying to look at things now without justification of their beauty, including the mirror, including my ambitions and dreams. To have a life that is beautiful it needs only the validation of its creator and it's a process that could take to the very last breath. You’ve got to go, act and live, because life is already happening whether you’re in it or not.