Before you write people off, start seeing the world in a monotone blur, accuse others of your own short comings and start to lose sight of 'the meaning', first be sure you haven't built your walls so high you've blocked out all the light.
I have been afraid of judgement, because I have judged others. I have been afraid of rejection, because I have rejected others. And I have been afraid of being left, being lonely, because if all this is my fault, why not this too?
But if I have been guilty of these things, I too have been guilty of loving, yet I fear love, guilty of kindness yet fear being hurt. We are so quick to be accepting of negativity, we expect it from ourselves, we give it to others, we acceptingly receive it too.
Over the past few days I have shared my dark and twisty thoughts, these thoughts that have literally haunted me for years, they've cocooned me in a shell and walls of my own making and kept people out, made me resilient to others, giving everything but not accepting anything in. But these last few days, I have felt more blessed and loved than I have in a very long time, and it got me thinking, in a world full of hate and negativity it can feel like a very dark place, sometimes you have to stop searching for the light and make it yourself, but if you share your darkness you don't have to make it alone.
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